Moving over the thread from the other site. Didn't have a lot of things on there, so it should be easy.
Hi guys. It's been a few years since I've drawn anything seriously, and now I have a DND group with a diverse cast of characters as inspiration. My first project is my half-elf hexblade. Here's a rough face concept with base colors laid down. Feel free to really rip into my art as I need to learn how to handle tough critiques as well as know where I'm weak.
I need to make the ears less pointy as I forgot I was a half-elf. Also, can't seem to quite get that spiky punk hair I want, but I'm sure it'll work itself out in iterations.
Working on the hair, trying to see if I can get it how I want it to be. Been playing around with the chalk brush and I really do like it. My facial proportions might be off, like maybe need to lower the nose just a touch or just redo the nose entirely.
Critiques are welcome.
Armor concept silhouettes.
Found a posture online (terrible, I know, but needed something quick). I like the asymmetrical spikes along the figure more; brings an interesting movement and balance to the overall figure. Think I'll focus on pointy elements throughout the armor since the character can be a bit abrasive lol.
silentheart00 indeed or maybe now I looked several minutes it could also be because of the rough shading of the nose there it looks like ske is slightly looking more to the left side while when I check the chin and ears there it looks more in front style
yyukinoh1989 Yeah, it's still a bit rough. I'll fix the face when I'm working on it =]
silentheart00 indeed it start to look more like feathers. After some extra details it will look like the perfect feathers
@yukinoh1989 Thanks!
Trying to add more detail, but I'm being restricted by the resolution size. Time for detailing elsewhere.
silentheart00 Those feathers have come a long way! When I'm leaning back in my chair it's a bit hard to see (probably due the resolution you mentioned), but leaning in those look like nice feathers! Good progress :)
silentheart00 looks really great. Indeed sometime adding details isn't possible due to the size. But it really looks great. Can't wait to see her finished
Fiddling with the outfit more. Was kind of thinking of a see-through mesh thing for the lightest purple in her clothing. Don't quite like the bodice being that round. Might fiddle with that more.
silentheart00 nice work. It's fun to see how much shading and lightning can add such a difference.
silentheart00 I love the vintage look of the corset! Also really like the shade in the seams, gives it depth. Good progress Silent 😄👍🏻
yyukinoh1989 ssmurfmier1985 Thanks guys!
Trying to figure out a mesh shirt-like fabric for the skirt portion. It's okay so far. Need to analyze more.
Upped the resolution to be able to add more detail. Feathers look more feather with the additional detail.
silentheart00 looking really good. Love it so far. This will look amazing when it's gonna be finished
I've been having a really rough few days, which has made me realize I really need help. Since others have been open about themselves, maybe I should open up a little, too.
I made choices in order to prepare for grad school, mostly financial, that has had terrible consequences for me, my SO, and my SO's family. We live with them rent free, and it's very gracious of them to let us live here. However, I have come to realize I am really bad at living with other people, so tensions are very high because the things I do come off as rude when really, I just don't want to talk to people. It's a bad habit from other related issues I don't feel ready to discuss on an open forum. So, the mother takes these silences personally, and due to other issues of mine, maybe they are directed at her. I know I am indescribably angry at her for telling a secret other people would consider good news, but I completely loathe and hate the choice I made. The thing that makes me the most angry was I asked her to not to tell anyone until I was ready to tell people. What a horrible mistake. But, now I know I cannot trust her, and as a long time response, I completely stopped talking to her and the rest of the family, really. These are reasonable people. I know rationally if I tell them my problems they will be completely supportive and chill. But I have this completely irrational fear of something holding me back., which I believe stems from my mom.
My mother is a corporeal, punitive, and unpredictable person no matter the infraction, which has made me fear conflict. I shut down, physically unable to speak even though I am screaming in my mind my responses for fear of being yelled at even more. She also turns my emotions against me, guilt tripping me for feeling the way I do. I had a birthday party that only a few people came to when I had invited all of my friends and really wanted my best friend there, but no. I became really sad, ran to my room, locked the door and cried. My mom thought it was a good idea to pick open my door and confront me. Not try to support and understand me, confront me as to why I am sad and how dare I be like this when friends are around. As a result, I've become really good at hiding my feelings in public, but explode into a mess in private. I also have very poor control of my emotions, and with all the tensions around the house, it's becoming worse.
It's not fair for my SO to bear the brunt of my terrible outbursts. It's not fair to the family to live with someone who has the emotional handling of a toddler. I have finally admitted to myself I need to go to therapy to sort all of this out.
I do eventually plan to tell my SO's parents my problems, how angry I am at them, explain where my issues come from because I think it's important for me to start building up healthier relationships, but those irrational fears are holding me back. I hope I can find a good therapist and I hope I can get better. In the meantime, I use my art and my music to express my emotions.
silentheart00 Sorry to hear you had such a tough time growing up... I think it's a good step to find a therapist to help you work through some stuff, and hopefully they can help you develop the tools to handle your emotions, as well as help you with being able to talk to your SO's family about what's going on with you.
I hope you've told your SO what's going on? So you've got at least one person to talk about it, someone to trust. Expressing yourself with art and music is a great way to deal with emotions, but if the emotions run too high you'll need someone to talk to, besides a therapist of course. Plus it might be real hard for him/her to see you going through a tough time as well as the tension it causes at home, without knowing what's going on.
I'm rooting for you to find a way to deal with all this and hopefully you'll get to a better place soon. And whenever you're feeling down you can always tell us guys over here for some moral support!
Best of luck you Silent, I hope you find your way.
ssmurfmier1985 Thanks for the support. Yes, I do tell my SO my problems, but it's gotten to the point where I should really consider professional help. I'm sure at the surface level, it's the environment and the fact that I do not live with others well, but those things may be stemming from deeper problems. I'm looking around and researching. Hopefully I can find someone to help soon.
